Pain Propaganda

I am Will: someone who lives in constant, unceasing physical pain. Pain that has limited me in so many ways; preventing me from pursuing my creativity the way I used to.

I also recognize a world full of pain. Fascism (foxtrot delta tango, all day long), ignorance and general hate surround us, causing a different kind of pain.

Studies show that swearing can actually reduce the impact of pain.. And as a music instructor once told me: Better to be vulgar than non-existent. That's a Bev Hensen quote, by the way.

I spread my own brand of vulgarity across the world, and share it with all of you, hoping you find your own relief in what I create. I may not have the more well-refined technique of my peers, but I stopped caring about that long ago.

If I had to nail down the motivation of my pain propaganda, it'd be this:

I don't create for the masses. I create for my fellow spoonies. My fellow LGBTQ+ folk. My fellow anti-fascists. My fellow fucking weirdos..

..But ultimately, as all art should be, I create for me.

If you asked me to nail down the most important reason to create art, I’d have to say this: Because I fucking want to.

It really is that simple; The very nature of creativity is the imperative to create. Thanks to that nature, I do create. In the visual spectrum, I enjoy crafting in numerous mediums.

Creative coding, photography, illustration, collage and even watercolor painting have been - and in most cases, continue to be - areas of visual expression that I pursue.

I’m also - to a limited extent - a late-in-life artist. I didn’t really get passionate about art as a kid; Part of this is because I wasn’t aware of why I hated doing traditional art so much.. And as it turns out, it’s because the physical pain I felt while holding a brush or pencil wasn’t normal.

I eventually pursued digital art, finally finding a medium that afforded me the means to create despite the pain. Even later I tried pursuing traditional art again, doing pen illustrations and watercolors for a brief period before the pain got even worse. I at least got to exhibit works again, and felt the joy at selling some original watercolors to folks who still have those pieces hanging today.

Despite my disability, I continued to find ways to make art; I may not be able to paint my weird-as-fuck animal portraits, but I can still make use of the digital tools available to me to craft my unique pieces.

My art may not appeal to most. My art may not hang in any major galleries. My art may not win awards.

What my art does, though, is make me feel happy; Happy to still be able to create, spark reactions, and motivate myself to do more despite all the barriers in front of me.

I hope it motivates you, too.

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Look, I get it. life is expensive.. Obviously, otherwise, I wouldn't be here plying my wares with the hopes of you spending some of your hard-earned capital to acquire it.

If I'm forced to participate in a capitalist industry, though, maybe I can have some fun with it.. And so can you.

I create spoonie, leftist and sometimes just fucking funny and/or weird shit to decorate your life with.. and I am not fucking subtle in my creativity.

I've been making random shit for years, but recently I found my niche, and finally began making a little extra side-income which helps pay for medical bills, mortgages, and munitions.

As a bonus, I get to have fun pushing my hard-left ideology that is shared with - apparently - a lot of people.. Which also makes me extremely happy.

I don't create this shit just to pay bills, though. I actually make everything for myself; I love my morale patches, my laptop is covered in stickers, and it's actually cheaper for me to get my own t-shirts than to buy them from some chain (although I love supporting my fellow indie artists and buying their shit, too).

So, I rock my shit all over town. Hopefully you will too!

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I've been making music for well over half my life now. I was originally classically trained in tenor and bass trombone, but expanded into numerous instruments.. And I've been even known to sing on occasion.

I fucking love making music. I built up my own home studio over the years while also refining my performance and recording techniques in order to crate what you hear today.

I've even had a bit of minor internet fame, for what little shit that is worth; I am most well-known for a cover of Lux Aeterna, performed in a neoclassical shred style.

Of course, that feels like a lifetime ago.. And it may as well be, because my body is too broken to do that anymore.

With my RA and CMT practically destroying my dexterity and finger-strength, I just plain can't perform live anymore.. Which is a shame, because I also used to make a decent chunk of side-hustle change as a blues busker.

Still, I have my studio, and I have a passion for creating. That's enough to keep going in some way, shape, or form.. And I'm going to do it. Just take a listen to my recent releases, and hopefully you'll find something that inspires your own passion.

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